(time is change)


Saturday, November 25, 2006

at least the ups are still up!

mmmm cookies and beer tonight....


(amy posted at 11:47:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Friday, November 17, 2006

i give up.

shit.


(amy posted at 10:31:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Monday, November 13, 2006

if i didn't have you, i would be so sad.

but then maybe i would have myself.

(for a little while, but i always give myself away...)


(amy posted at 12:42:00 AM even though time may not exist)


Tuesday, November 07, 2006

i need a day off just so i can get research done.

i'm frustrated with my current living situation, where neither solomon's house nor mine is really home.

i'm poor as all hell, but that's nothing new.

i would like a break now, please.


(amy posted at 8:21:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Sunday, October 29, 2006

my lovely horse, you're a pony no more (running around with a man on your back, like a train in the night, yeah)

i have never hated a job until value village, and so i have never quit a job that i hated until now. anyway, i have a new job at video difference, which i start this week. i'm looking forward to it. (it'll be hard, though, with only two days off a week while writing a thesis)

friday night, we partied on chebucto lane, just in time for the cops to show up and scare me with threats of $450 fines for drinking liquor in public (little amy was a bit too much of everything to understand at the time. also, did that cop call me "sweetheart"...?) anyway, sol makes a very good captain elvis, sky looked more and more like a zombie the drunker he got, i wore a bra made out of vegetable steamers, and at some point in the evening, was talking to paul legere (seriously) although the details remain sketchy. anyway, every time we party on chebucto lane, the cops show up and threaten to arrest people, and i don't know why we bother.

this week i'm hooked on sushi and new underwear, and i just can't stop at either!

two days after the fire inspector visits our apartment (and tells us to take down the decorative fabric and unplug the toaster) there's a fire in the apartment below us. a) i'm surprised it wasn't our apartment that went up in smoke, b) i kind of want a new apartment.

i have to wonder if i could live with you, or if it would be too much.

i miss my piano.


(amy posted at 8:05:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Thursday, October 26, 2006

sometimes i get scared, but i like that you're still here after all this time. i like that you let me in, over and over and more and more.

shopping with bianca tomorrow!!

i have never seen adults fight like that. i was hoping it was something you grow out of. anyway, it made me sad and i know it made you sad (you just don't say that shit, not in front of someone's children)

my voice is different today because i don't care anymore.

my bedroom reeks like caulk.

i finished my proposal tonight!

every morning i pop a handfull of pills, and it feels so unnatural.


(amy posted at 12:03:00 AM even though time may not exist)


Friday, October 20, 2006

oopsie! interview at video difference on a day i have to work at value village. i hope i get this job, otherwise i'll be getting in trouble for nothing!

(last night i spent all my money on vitamins!)


(amy posted at 11:18:00 AM even though time may not exist)


Thursday, October 19, 2006

allrighty, ms hypochondria. i think i'm ill because i'm always hungry these days, and isn't it true that when your appetite changes, it's a sign you might be sick? i dunno, i'm not putting on weight or anything, i just keep getting hungry. maybe i have, like, a brain tumour (i've been on the cell-phone too much, i think. i get headaches when i think about it.) maybe i've just been doing more than usual (most likely). i'm probably crazy.

we spent $40 on breakfast before going back to sleep this morning and neglecting all our responsibilities (except to ourselves and our bodies, i suppose). i always sleep feverishly when i go back to bed in the morning, and have ridiculous dreams about rock operas and glitter, and then i can't wake up because i'm delerious. i couldn't even move this morning (part 2.)

i want to live in a house made of straw in the highlands and have a goat and a big sheepdog. we can run a spa for rich yuppies and sell chain maille in the off-season, and forget about the rest of the world. why am i still going to school if all i want for the future is a farm and a little love to get me through? (a commune, even! i bet luke's down!)

well, sushi tonight with bee, and then just research research research (and maybe cleaning my room.)

(every time i call work to ask for my schedule zac answers, and i feel like i'm always bugging him. also, they keep making me close friday and open sunday, which means i only get a maximum of six hours' sleep in between. is this illegal, or should i just be thankful i have a job right now?)

i'm moving home to my parents' place. it's cleaner and cheaper, and i can be alone all day. (we'll have to meet up in tantallon!)

rah!


(amy posted at 3:18:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Sunday, October 15, 2006

firstly, i am a rollercoaster.

secondly, i have been under a lot of stress.

lastly, i would like a vacation right now, from everything, and sometimes, yes, even you (i wish i could change the way i react to you sometimes, but i can't.)

i worry about all the wrong things.


(amy posted at 8:18:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Wednesday, October 11, 2006

i would like to disappear.

forever, maybe.


(amy posted at 9:16:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Thursday, October 05, 2006

drunk.

went camping this past weekend. bought wine, ate dinner at a snooty restaurant, camped in a tent and sweated all night, randomly ran into my cousin at a coffee shop, got a free polka record in wolfville, drained the car battery and got a boost from a church-goer fresh from the sunday service, and did not get slashed to death by the imaginary creeper my 1am-mind dreamed up. it was a good weekend. i love my solomon.

i don't really have much time, but i make it whenever i can, especially for thursday night drinking with the girls.

my thesis proposal is only five days late! (so far)

quilting, motherfuckers.

i am drunker than i had previously thought.

i still need a new job.


(amy posted at 10:50:00 PM even though time may not exist)


Wednesday, September 27, 2006

i am so lucky.

(even though i hate my job, which i often do)

but, yes. so lucky.


(amy posted at 11:49:00 AM even though time may not exist)


Tuesday, September 26, 2006

we weren't supposed to live like this, but don't be sad.

(i can see my breath this morning, and i scoured my bedroom looking for mittens. the seasons change every year, but they always catch me off guard.)


(amy posted at 8:41:00 AM even though time may not exist)